I can't move past it. Unless...
Is it wrong to want to be punished for doing something wrong? Is it odd that I will continue to feel guilty unless I am punished? That being punished makes me feel absolved? Forgiven? Like I have been given a clean slate. It tells me, you were wrong, it is over, now you will start over and be good.
My smart mouth and nasty attitude can get me in trouble. I know this, usually as soon as the words form on my lips. Yet I don't stop myself and continue to spew until I have upset someone.
This time it was Him.
Will I be forgiven, or will I be forced to carry the guilt?
I suppose that would be a worse punishment for me. Almost like torture, as it eats away at me, a constant thought in the back of my mind.
Please forgive me.
I would like to try again.
My smart mouth and nasty attitude can get me in trouble. I know this, usually as soon as the words form on my lips. Yet I don't stop myself and continue to spew until I have upset someone.
This time it was Him.
Will I be forgiven, or will I be forced to carry the guilt?
I suppose that would be a worse punishment for me. Almost like torture, as it eats away at me, a constant thought in the back of my mind.
Please forgive me.
I would like to try again.
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